A Journey of No Return

Today I have decided to embark on a journey of no return. I have thinking about it for a long time. Thinking about it is no use.......I have to make an effort to start the journey. A journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step. So I am now taking the first step. I should not procrastinate any longer. I am not getting younger...and age is really catching up.Memories are not so excellent. Now, I am dead serious about the journey. Ya,  I have to be dead to reach this destination.... the destination where all followers of the Western Paradise Buddhist Sect hope to get to. Hope is the word................one has to strive hard to get there. It is not somewhere you pay money to get there. For this journey, the fare is constant recitation of Amitabha. Constant recitation is not the only criteria....one must also have sincerity and will to want to go there. One must be willing to let go.............let go of earthly ties.
Now I am just planting my small little seed in the pond in Western Paradise. Hopefully the seed will sprout into a  lotus where I can be reborn in............ a small lotus among many other beautiful lotuses.
I want to leave this saha world which is full of suffering. Wars, pestilence, famine,poverty, natural disasters, diseases, old age, partings, loneliness, death.................there is so much suffering in this world.
Everything is transient.....in this saha world. Love comes, love goes............all depends on affinity.
I will have to thank my second half and his family for my resolve to leave this saha world forever. My gratitude towards him especially for all the things that he has done to make me aware of the impermanence of everything in this world.
I know the journey is not going to be an easy one, but I will not give up. I know there will be people who will strewn nails on the path..........but I will carry on diligently. There is no other way....this is the only escape route available out of this saha world.